Overcoming

So,
we did a demo today at rotary park and it was my day to board break. . .

I got up there . . . lined my boards up,
broke on my side heel , didn't break my palm.

second attempt
didn't break

then i lined up again, and broke my knee and elbow.

You know, It gets very frustrating after awhile to know that you have worked so hard to getting to this point and then you cannot break a stupid board lol. But it is something that I need to do, and I WILL do it. . .

And the more I think about it, the more I do come to believe that it is all mental. (not that I haven't been told this already, I just didn't believe it??)
I have spent a part of my time trying to make everything perfect, to make sure that the boards are the best that they could possibly be, to find the easiest board and use it for my "so called" weakest technique. But I've got to stop thinking about it that way. . . I have to start thinking of it as
"okay, I have this piece of wood standing in the way of my target, so I have to go through it."
because ultimately, it is not the board that is stopping me. I am stopping me.

I have spent time crying over this, worrying, but I won't do it to myself anymore, ill just break it. . . this is what I have to do.

Blast through it lol.